Life-aholic

Hi my name's AP
"Hi AP"
I've spent the last 18 years of my life getting high on it
and I dunno if I can ever quit
because with every hit
the high won't submit
to my self-conscious wish.
I used to use this to escape reality
but when it started to encroach on my fantasy it kind of lost interest in me.
I would like to think that there are greater things at the end of the rainbow
fabricated by the MD MA laced trace of the moments which hurt me in the past
cuz the moments themselves aren't here to stay
and the impact they have has left me in withdrawal, but hey.
All good things must come to an end
except for those which stand you on your head
because these are the tools of reason
so you can take a step back from the feeling
and admire all the memories
through the haze with which they were conceived.
damn I have a craving.
I already possess part of that component
which will help me light a moment
but the rest is up to you
so meet me in a minute
I need to buy some life
then I can take that first letter
and roll something nice
maybe next time I'll try a needle
It'll shoot it right to me
or maybe a shotgun
so it goes right through me
and in the process I can satisfy the wonder if it hurts
or if the lights just turn off
then I'll wake up in a hers
after you revive me from the shock
of watching lives burn like pot between God's lip
go ahead and snort that last line
the meaning is potent
he'll do nothing to stop you
he shares in the profit.